onward and upward

I can still remember how it felt leaving Maggie at daycare her very first day. I didn’t cry, I don’t think. But it was… SO WEIRD. I was just starting to dive back into my freelance work, just one day each week, so I didn’t even have anything major to do yet. So as I drove away, I thought… now what? I can go home and check my email? Or something?

I ended up going to Target to try on clothes. (I was in that Very Awkward Postpartum Phase of still having a decent amount of weight to lose but it probably wasn’t appropriate to wear maternity clothes any longer. So it was the right choice, I think. ha.) I remember driving through the parking lot and catching a glimpse of her empty carseat base and having a moment of OMG WHERE’S THE BABY??! panic. Then… oh. Right. Daycare! Duh! It was my first day away from her in 10 weeks. So I guess that was normal. And of COURSE I felt kind of guilty for trying on clothes while my baby was being watched by someone else. It was a weird, strange day.

I also remember (this is kind of embarrassing!) when I went to pick her up that afternoon, I had a serious panic when I glanced around the infant room and couldn’t pick out MY OWN BABY. I mean, in my defense, there were a bunch of them and they were all bald and wearing pink (lots of girls!) and it’s not she was running toward me, excited to see me after the long day apart. But it took me a minute to find her, like I… forgot what she looked like in 8 hours? ha. First time moms, man!

watching Mommy make dinner

Fast-forward five years. Today was her last day at that same daycare. It was the last time we’ll open the door and hear the chorus of “MAGGIE!” from all of her friends- most of whom have also been there for the past five years. It was the last time we’d walk down that sidewalk together, me telling her to HURRY UP, OMG and WATCH THE STONES, PLEASE, DON’T RUN! It was the last time we’d point out the chickens in the yard or talk about how the alpacas were smelling QUITE RIPE this morning, GOODNESS.

5 years at this daycare. Today is her last day.

Audrey will be at the daycare for a few more days, then she too will be moving to a new place. There are a lot of reasons for this decision, most of them are practical based on location and timing for kindergarten pick-up and bus pick-up and blahblahblah… kind of a bummer list of reasons to switch daycares, but it really just makes sense right now. I think next week it will hit me even harder that we’re leaving the place that was home- and people that were like family- to our kids for a sum of seven years.

Monday starts a whole new chapter in Maggie’s life, and in ours. We are all a bit nervous and excited, I think. Sad about what we’re leaving behind, but anxious to dig into our new schedule and routine and meeting new friends.

Five more days....


  1. Melissa

    August 24, 2012 12:37 pm

    It’s hard making big changes like that–moreso on the parents, I think. But Maggie is going to LOVE Kindergarten, and I have a feeling Audrey will have fun ANYwhere, heh. It will just take time for the new routine to feel “normal.” Here’s to new adventures for all of you!

  2. Jennie

    August 24, 2012 12:39 pm

    I totally had that moment of WHICH ONE IS MINE back in the early days of daycare. To my credit, they all do kind of look alike, at a distance, etc. ;-)

    • Jen

      August 24, 2012 12:41 pm

      OMG OKAY GOOD. ha I’ve been carrying that one around for a long time. LOL Almost for as long as the story about how I drove 20 minutes home on the highway without buckling a 4-week-old Maggie into her infant seat. OOPS. (OMG.)

  3. Jennie

    August 24, 2012 12:40 pm

    *To my defense, I meant to say. Totally not to my credit!

  4. A'Dell

    August 24, 2012 12:44 pm

    We’ve had so many changes in care situations already that I do wonder how I’ll feel when Claire finally gets to kindergarten. Is it going to be BIG or just OH HEAVENS YES PLEASE. And who knows what I’ll be doing at that point anyway.

    But yeah! Big deal! You have a legit Big Kid now!

  5. janet

    August 24, 2012 4:40 pm

    Ha, I’m laughing at the which one is mine dilemma! Who knew?

    Maggie is one darn cute kindergartener! And you have every reason to be a proud mama :)

  6. Jesabes

    August 27, 2012 9:55 am

    That is exactly how the first day of daycare was for me. Leaving her was just so…weird. Then at pickup: omg, which one is mine???

  7. Dave (Scrumpy Daddy)

    August 27, 2012 1:10 pm

    I bet she’s going to LOVE Kindergarten! The time just flies by! (Before you know it, you’ll be looking back on this post in May, wondering how you are coming up on the end of the year already. Heh!)

    And I had that same reaction, picking up Abby the first time. (And several other times throughout the years. Same with Zach…they just all look so much the same from a distance! I need to get down and look each one in the eyes. :-) )

    Good luck, Maggie! Good luck all of you, on the new places & schedules and changes!

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