May 23, 2012
If you follow me on Twitter or Facebook, then you most likely know the story of the past few days. But if not, here you go… :)
After being admitted to the hospital again on Saturday night, the short story is this: the new antibiotics didn’t do much for Audrey’s lymph node swelling, so after running some different tests to rule out a few things on Monday, she had “minor” surgery yesterday afternoon to clean out and biopsy the lump on her neck.
I say “minor” in quotes because really, when it’s YOUR baby being taken back into an operating room and there is general anesthesia and Very Intimidating Release Forms to sign, no matter WHAT the surgery is for? There is nothing minor about it. And on top that, there were still a lot of questions about what they might find when they got in there. So that 45 minute wait in the operating room waiting area was pretty awful. (Thank you to everyone on Twitter for trying your best to distract us! It worked kinda. I mean, as much as you could expect!)
The verdict: it was/is an infection. WHEW. They cleaned it out and took routine samples for pathology and the microbiology lab, then put in a drain to let any excess fluid out over the next day or so. No lymph nodes needed to be removed, and they should go back to normal once the infection is completely gone.
Side story: when the surgeon came and got us from the waiting room, instead of talking to us in the main area like we watched other doctors do, he pulled us into a private room and closed both doors. I THOUGHT I MIGHT DIE RIGHT THEN AND THERE. What was he about to TELL US? OMG. My heart was racing. He quickly said he just wanted to protect our privacy, which I appreciate. But HOLY CRAP.
Audrey recovered quickly from the whole ordeal. We were prepared for much screaming and yelling after the anesthesia wore off, but she only fussed a little. She was SUUUPER sleepy, but content with just snuggling on Dan’s lap in recovery and chug a whole sippy cup full of apple juice while we waited to be taken back up to our room.
As it stands now, we’re just kind of hanging out today. She’s got tons of energy after a good night of sleep and a huge dinner last night, and two breakfasts this morning (that’s my girl!!) A few more doses of iv antibiotics and the doctor will be checking in on us again this evening to take their first peek under the gauze on her neck. If they’re able, he’ll remove the drain and we’ll be able to go home- either tonight or tomorrow morning. Another week or so of antibiotics and hopefully, this will all be over.
One of the hardest things about these few days (other than SOMEONE CUTTING INTO MY BABY’S FACE and fear of the unknown) is keeping Audrey occupied, especially when she was hooked up to the fluid iv and leaving the room was a huge production. She has felt perfectly fine this whole time, which is GREAT, but it does make things tough because she just wants to play. Monday was the hardest, because MAN, she wasn’t allowed food OR running around until they decided on a course of action. So every time we’re giving the all-clear for leaving the room, we take full advantage.
I want to also say THANK YOU SO SO MUCH to everyone for all the messages and texts and offers to help. You have NO IDEA how much it all means. I cried in the car on the way into the hospital yesterday morning, just so overwhelmed by it all. So many people were thinking about us and praying and wishing Audrey well, and that makes us feel so damn lucky. We had a few scary moments where we weren’t sure about a diagnosis, and more than a few stressful and exhausting days and nights. Knowing you all are there to send love and maybe even some temporary distraction and entertainment is a huge comfort. MWAH! :)
I also can’t say enough about this hospital here. I mean, thankfully we have extremely limited experience with hospitals in general, especially with the girls. But the nurses and doctors have been helpful and concerned and friendly and the facility is absolutely amazing. I have more thoughts on this that I may write about later when my brain isn’t fried, but I have to admit that being here for just a few days has changed my thinking on a lot of things. Perspective and all that.
Now, we just want to get home. We miss Maggie. She’s been back and forth between the two grandmas, my sister, school, and each of us has taken a night at home with her- totally fun for her, and she’s been a major trooper through it all, but I know she’s getting worn out too. We’re definitely looking forward to our first night with ALL of us home, in our own beds, hopefully sleeping for eleventy billion hours because HOLY CRAP WE ARE TIRED.