like a broken record

Every few months, I vow to lose some weight. I promise that I’m going to exercise regularly. I make plans to eat healthy, or eat less, or just quick eating crap. And most of the time, I fail miserably.

I’m not technically ‘fat’ at the moment. Last September, I weighed 20 pounds more than I do now. So I see that as a definite plus. But my body is just… smooshy. I have that Mom-Chub in my middle, you know what I mean- the Back Fat that no matter how much you ‘suck it in’ in the front, it’s physically impossible to ‘suck it in’ on your back. heh.

I haven’t been able to workout since the beginning of October because of an unknown injury to my knee, resulting in bursitis. It’s been almost 8 weeks, and it’s just now finally getting better. Two weeks ago, the doctor said it was almost there and to give it a few more weeks of rest. It no longer is swollen except in the morning (and even then, just a *tiny* bit swollen) but it still hurts to kneel on it. Which means no yoga, no pilates, no exercise bike. Boo on that! And now that my knee is finally okay for walking, walking is out of the question because it’s like 5 degrees outside. I am anxiously awaiting the day when I can finally take a yoga class again.

I need to lose 10 pounds. I’m not overly focused on the pounds really- I’m not embarrassed to say that I currently weight 130 pounds. It’s not a lot, but for my height (5’3″) and my frame, it’s too much. My body would be much healthier if I was at 120. Four years ago that’s where I was, and I felt great. I of course gained some weight while I was pregnant (okay, so ‘some’ is an under-exaggeration- I gained 40 pounds!!) but I lost all of that last year. But over the past 4 or 5 months, I’ve slowly slipped back into my old habits of eating too much at meals, snacking on junky food, and just generally not taking care of myself.

All of this to say: I renewed my Weight Watchers subscription today. I KNOW. The day before Thanksgiving- what the heck am I thinking, right? Several of you called me out on my insanity on Twitter, and part of me totally agrees with you. But another part of me says, ‘If not now, when?’ Weight Watchers worked so well last year when I needed it to, so I’m willing to give it another go. Luckily this time, I only have a 10 pound goal and not a 20-25 pound goal.

I also stumbled across a nifty little blog today, totally by fluke (how’s that for Cosmic Timing?) The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans. Because, come on, we’ve all totally blamed the dryer on our muffin top! I joined up for their current challenge, which I think falls right in line with my ‘Holidays? What Holidays?’ attitude with dieting this year.

Bottom line: I’m sick of my jeans not fitting right anymore, and I’m sick of feeling like this again. Uncomfortable in my skin. I remember how awesome it felt last winter when I finally shed the last of my pregnancy weight and I want that feeling back.

The good news? It’s almost 9pm and I’m still 1 point below my daily limit (which is 21 points). I’m gonna go have myself a cookie.


  1. Becca

    November 26, 2008 9:29 pm

    It’s SO like you read my mind for this entry. I was just telling my husband this afternoon that I really wanted to lose some weight. I’m also short (5’2″) and I’ve definitely gained a lot of weight. The last time I gained this much weight was a few summers ago. I spent the summer on a mission trip in Florida and although I walked everywhere, I ate a lot of pasta. I went from weighing 120 to 140 in three months…
    This time I’m not quite sure the problem, it’s probably a combo of birth control, metabolism change, and the fact that I don’t get much exercise daily. I am between 140-145 lbs which is considered overweight for my age and height. I really want to lose it, but I’m not sure how to. I truly don’t feel like I eat that much, I know I’m not getting enough exercise and if my metabolism has changed, that would explain why. In August I started exercising but then I got bored and stopped. I need to start up again!

  2. Melissa

    November 26, 2008 10:06 pm

    I know I kidded you on Twitter, too, but (*sigh*) I’m totally with you. And you’re right – if not now, when? Why let it get WORSE over the holidays before working on it? I don’t want to look back two months from now, unable to button my jeans, and want to kick myself for not being more careful. So I need to be smart like you! :)

    I have a different problem though: I’m 5 lb over my “ideal” spring weight (143), which I’d like to lose, but… can’t… right now. And not because I’m not willing or able, but because I’m too afraid to be quite as strict with my diet as I usually am or work out as hard as I usually do while we’re “trying.” Basically the past two months I’ve been eating wheat bread sandwiches for lunch a 3-4 days a week (instead of almost NO bread at all, ever) and a lot more fruits, and I go easier on working out… which all adds up to, you guessed it, an extra 5 lb! Grr. It doesn’t really show, but it bothers me. At the same time I’m not willing to take any chances for a measly 5 lb, you know? I guess my plan is to make sure my weight doesn’t go up any more than this. Hopefully I can hold steady, because I’m sort of afraid of how long this might go on… :(

    Good luck with your weight loss! I will think of you tomorrow for moral support so I can avoid all the pie at my mom’s house!!

    Melissas last blog post: and when there was no moon she watched the stars

  3. Scary Mommy

    November 26, 2008 10:38 pm

    I’m with you. I’ll be gorging myself for the next several days, but come Monday, I’ll be miserably counting points! Looking forward to getting to know you through the Shrinking Jeans :)

    Scary Mommys last blog post: Blonde Moments

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  5. Rachie

    November 27, 2008 12:17 am

    I would like to get back to my wedding weight which is 30 pounds lighter than I am right now. I’ve only been married and year and a half. Please tell me how I gained ALL that weight so damn fast?

    I wish you luck on your weight loss. I might see you around on weight watchers . com!

    Rachies last blog post: Hold me back, hold me back!

  6. Steph

    November 27, 2008 12:17 am

    you would not have liked to be at my house today while watching you points… after a very health chicken and salad dinner, i baked the best chocolate chip cookies i think i have ever baked in my life. why? we have no groceries. nothing to snack on. so… i pretty much had to.

    letmetellyou.. i think i ate about 8 of them. GOD. UGH. how many points IS THAT!??! hehe.

    I will be bringing cookies to work with me tomorrow.

    Happy thanksgiving :)

    Stephs last blog post: Let’s Hear it for Me, Myself and the letter “I”!

  7. Steph

    November 27, 2008 12:19 am

    holy, i can’t type today… i meant to say: 1) YOUR points and 2) HEALTHY

    i will blame the excess sugar. :P

    Stephs last blog post: Let’s Hear it for Me, Myself and the letter “I”!

  8. Jane

    November 29, 2008 9:44 am

    I’m IN too! Re-upped at WW online. Ohh… I need this!! :)

    I guess this means I’ll be sharing all my lefse!

    Janes last blog post: Lefse

  9. Mel

    November 30, 2008 12:45 pm

    I’m in on this challenge as well because I haven’t been this heavy in two years. I’ve got 15 pounds to lose…and maybe more for the wedding next year.

    Mels last blog post: MY Thanksgiving….

  10. crookedeyebrow

    November 30, 2008 7:50 pm

    I have been paying for WW for a full year without going. So I feel you on renewing your subscription to WW before thanksgiving.

    We are so glad that you have decided to join us at the sisterhood of shrinking jeans for our challenge. It starts tomorrow, are you ready?

    You can do it!

    sisterhood of the shrinking jeans

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