again with the perspective

I was going to post a snarky, funny entry about how my period was messing with me again this month, having me convinced that I was surprisingly pregnant (I’m not.) I was nauseous for 2 days, and some things were happening with my girl-stuff that were identical to those that happened when I WAS pregnant and Lordy, I was freaking out. But, yesterday things became normal on that subject and I can breathe a sigh of relief that I won’t have 2 under 2 by the end of 2008.

Then I was going to post a kind-of-complaining entry about the non-stop whining Maggie has been doing for the last 2 days, partly because of teething and partly because of a low-grade fever she had today. We think it was from her shot yesterday at the doctor, because her leg is a little red at the injection site. She ate lunch and dinner just fine today and is sleeping now. But I decided to cut my work-day short and pick her up early just in case. When I got there, she was napping (of course!) so I let her sleep a bit longer while I chatted with the ladies there. We came home and played, went outside in the nice weather and played on her new swingset she got for her birthday. More whining after dinner, thankfully Daddy took over and gave Mama a break.

Now I feel like a big pile of crap for wanting a break. This week so far has left me feeling incredibly guilty for not appreciating- constantly and consciously- all of the blessings I have. My daughter is healthy and alive, and I’m complaining about Life, and then I read about another family who is dealing with the most tragic, unimaginable loss right now. Apparently, reading about Emily’s friends the other day wasn’t enough to wake me up. God is saying, ‘Hey Jen! Quit being such a whiner!‘ Geez, I suck.

Now please excuse me while I go check on my sleeping baby 9,731 times tonight.


  1. Kelly

    April 2, 2008 10:23 pm

    Jen, I could have written this myself. I’ve read both of those family’s stories and I feel just sick for them.

    Makes you count your blessings, huh?

    Kelly’s latest blog post: He’s walking all over me.

  2. Laura

    April 2, 2008 10:40 pm

    You know what got me? In her last post, she said something like, “I love my life.” And I immediately thought, “OMG. I have never said that since Andrew was born. I have never even THOUGHT it.” But I can’t count on two hands the number of times I’ve thought the opposite. Somehow, I feel like I am the one who deserves something like that. In fact, to be honest, most days I feel like I’m just waiting for something bad to happen. I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop, the ultimate word in my NON-appreciation. Because I don’t LOVE this ENOUGH.

    Laura’s latest blog post: april batters

  3. Holly

    April 2, 2008 11:43 pm

    It’s time to call it a night and bring my babies (6) and (1) into bed with me.

    I ache for all the parents and children struggling right now. So sad.

    Holly’s latest blog post: Idol Recap: Dolly Week

  4. Melissa

    April 3, 2008 12:34 am

    Yeah, it made me feel like crap too… first I’m Twittering about “yay, it’s George’s turn to do Oliver’s bath!” as if my life is SO HARD, BOO HOO, and then I saw that, and I just had to link to it because seriously, I needed a good slap. There are just too many stories like this to remind me I am blessed to be exhausted from a day with my beautiful boy. I cannot fathom the pain of losing a child.

    I hope Maggie’s feeling better.

    P.S. On a lighter note… If I remember correctly, you laughed at me about being pregnancy buddies with #2… are you changing your mind? (Just kidding!!) :P

    Melissa’s latest blog post: she’s catching on

  5. Jen

    April 3, 2008 10:16 am

    @Melissa: I know, I needed the slap too. I had PMS like mad this week and felt like waa, waa, my life is rough. Wake up call, for sure.

    Maggie is doing better- I definitely think it was her shot. She has no fever today (yay!) and she’s not nearly as fussy/clingy, but her leg is still a bit red and sore at the injection site. I’m so glad she’s almost done with shots for a few years!

    And NO, not changing my mind, haha! I seriously couldn’t sleep the other night, I was totally stressing about where we would move stuff that’s in the 3rd bedroom for a 2nd baby. ha. Thankfully, not an issue at the moment ;)

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