September 28, 2006
When I first made the decision to quit my job and take the leap into working for myself and ONLY for myself, in my head it was this dream of ample free time and super-flexible hours. I would take walks, do some shopping, relax.. and in between, I’d be working.
The reality is, I’m busier now than I’ve ever been.
Not that I’m complaining- this month’s income has been fantastic (which is good, since it was my first month with no paycheck!) I am happy to have multiple clients to work with and several jobs ending as several are starting. But I am just now starting to feel better and get over the first trimester sickness of pregnancy, and I had to Power Through the worst days. Literally willing myself to JUST MAKE IT THROUGH.
Which I guess explains why I haven’t been around much on here. I haven’t had much to talk about, other than ‘Wow I feel like crap’ and ‘Wow I’ve got a lot to do’. I’ve spent the past month or so in a complete fog. The mixture of hormones and work and adjusting to this whole idea of Having A Baby… just made me feel ARGH.
But I’m happy to say that I’m starting to feel more like myself. I’m still pretty exhausted by the end of the day, but that’s to be expected! Earlier this week, I spent a whole day out- I drove 130 miles round-trip to meet with a new customer, and then stopped at the mall on the way home to buy some maternity clothes (yup, eeek!) By the time I got home, I was almost falling asleep in the car. heh.
I’m still a little bit worried. I’m wondering what’s going to happen when this baby is born. How will I balance all of this? Right now, I’ve been working literally 8hrs straight at home, with very few breaks. How will a baby fit into that? I know really that it will all work out, and my priority will obviously be the baby- work will always come second. But striking a balance will be a challenge… and I have a feeling I’m going to spend the first months completely winging it.
In other news, my dad turns 50 today. And his gift he asked for? Nicorette gum. He’s going to try to quit smoking. :)